Don't get me wrong, I'm excited about the idea of a sweet boy to worship and adore me...most of my friends have boys and everyone of them is precious, so I look forward to having my own...but here are a few things I've been thinking about as I approach raising a little boy...
1. I'm not raising a Boy, I'm raising a Man
These are the wise words of one of my closest friends...Amanda Newman. She has a little boy who will be 3 in November and I've heard her say these words many times. Until I found out Baby McCarty was in fact a boy, these words didn't really mean that much to me...now they weigh heavy on my mind. I feel like I'm still figuring out how to raise a little lady and my plan to conqueror the middle/high school years was to send her to school in homemade clothes with freshly permed hair...by making her look as dreadful as possible I would be protecting her from the dangers of high school popularity. Then the perm would grow out and I would allow her to blossom in her years at Auburn. Easy, right. But raising a boy into a self sufficient man...I feel ill prepared for this task and just can't wrap my mind around the task set before me.
2. God is big believer in Justice
I don't know why I ever started believing this baby was a girl. From the moment I found out I was pregnant the first thing I thought was I would have a boy and be forced to relive every fight my brother and I ever had through my mom's eyes. It's now official, I'll be saying things like "Stay on your side of the car", and "I don't care who started it, you end it". I know first hand exactly how much two siblings can fight with each other and now I'll be learning how much it hurts your heart to see two of the people you love most in the world not get along.
3. Little boys don't look good in pink dresses
Or big hair bows. I'll be honest and admit a tear was shed when I realized I would never be using all of Ruth Ann's cute dresses and bows again. Every time I packed her clothes away after she outgrew something especially cute and part of me wished for another little girl to share these cute clothes with...now I'll be sharing them with the highest payer of at the local consignment sales to begin paying for blue clothes I need to purchase. Doing a little retail therapy in the last week has helped me realize baby boy clothes are cute...maybe not equally as cute, but still cute none the less. I'm also looking forward to making matching brother/sister outfits for next summer...my mind is racing with the idea of matching john-johns and smocked dresses!
4. Little boys LOVE their mommas
Several mothers of little boys have reminded me several times this week how much little boys love their mommas and how much mommas love their little boys. One friend had a little girl first and then, like myself, had a baby boy. She claims from the moment that boy was born he stole her heart. She loves her daughter, but she has a different relationship with her little boy...I can't wait to find out what that feels like. I'm also really hoping this baby is a snuggler...Ruth Ann is anti-snuggle and it breaks my heart. I've got my heart set on a chubby little snuggly boy and I hope my prayers get answered...I'm also hoping this will be the first baby boy in history that doesn't get dirty or stinky, but I have a feeling I can't get everything I wish for!